Cleansing

Heavy lids blink away the tears.A lonely tear escapes .
She can feel it's coolness trickle it's way down.
This lone tear brings her back to a place
20 years ago, abandoned and lost.
Her heart aches. The pain is numbing.
Tears flow over her bottom lid as one
pushes another down her face.
Her heart cries out.
It would be easy to brush away the tears
She doesn't.
Her breath becomes even and slow.
Her heart, quiet.
Her face feels cleansed
like a dewy morning glowing with sunlight after a storm.

Full Circle

The air is still and the waters are calm.
A false sense of serenity
Leading me on.

Unable to see clearly
as the fog rolls in
Surrounding me, confused
My world starts to spin.

The sky grows dark and the waters churn
The calm starts to fade, becoming the storm.
The waves loom above before  crashing down
Fierce and relentless watching me drown.

Turmoil wraps her arms around tight,
Squeezing and suffocating, with all her might.
Anger, confusion, disappointment, and pain
Emotions run wild amidst the rain.

Then the sky starts to clear
The waters are still
The storm has settled
The calmness, surreal.

Back where I started
Amazed at the calm,
Hoping it lasts
As I drift toward the fog.

Gasping for Air

I can’t catch my breath.

I gasp for air.
My eyes are glassy
As they fill with tears.
It is so lonely here
Surrounded by fear
The only sound I hear
Is me gasping for air.

Sweet Dreams

I need you here.
You said, "Soon my dear".
Then wished me, "Sweet Dreams"
So much more than it seems.
Holding the words near,
Drifting to sleep, releasing my fears.

Just My Name

It was unexpected, out of the blue
My name slipped off your tongue and caught me by surprise.
I loved the way it sounded, so personal, so true.
It felt loving, sensual, filled with meaning.
It's just my name.

Miss You Already

I review every inch of your body.

Your smile, your hands, your eyes.

My heart aches for you already.

My pain silently cries.

Always there, always haunting,

Spinning out of control.

The solemn sound of my wanting

Saturating my soul.

My thoughts of you never lost

Twisted, knotted, confined

Despair, confusion, and chaos

Intermingle, invading my shrine.

Riding the waves, scared and numb,

Holding fast and steady.

Knowing the worse is yet to come,

Because I miss you already.

Dreams

When the phone rings, I hope its you
but I tell my self its not true
but when I hear you breathing
my heart stops beating...
and I smile.

I can't think of any thing but you
I long for your touch and dream of your kiss...
when we are not together you're the only thing I miss
How happy you make me feel
It seems too real

but the reality is just a moment in our lives
that will mean nothing more than lies
sometime down the road as our hearts cry out for more
only nothing is there ...not like before.
Our reality is not what it seems
What we feel is only real in our dreams.

Denial

I am reading your poem,

And I ask myself why?

You are in love

Yet you try to deny.

Your writing is clearly

Unveiling your soul

You can’t run or hide

Your prose always knows.

I see it, it’s true

You try and pretend

That it doesn’t exist

And will come to end

You don’t want to admit

That you’ve fallen in love

You think it’s a weakness

A character flaw

You can’t let yourself

Be honest and true

For fear of the pain

That he doesn’t love you.

Truth

You see the truth
That others can't see
But I'm afraid of the truth
And what it will mean.

Fear of what's unknown
An end to my dreams
my plans shredded to pieces
For all to see.

Fear of hurting those
I love the most
And revealing to all
My beliefs are mere ghosts.

To you, the truth,
I cannot deny
But to hold on by a thread
To myself, I must lie.

At What Cost

The feeling overwhelms me
It seeps into my soul
The warmth envelops me
It makes me feel whole.

I've never felt anything
like this before
It makes my legs shake
And makes my heart soar.

My body naked and limp
Exhausted and sore
I smile sweetly
Hoping for more

Hoping this feeling
Will last for a while
His touch on my skin
causing my smile

But no, it won't last
Life must go on
Reality sets in
And the smile is gone.

When we part
The happiness wanes
Like the sun in the sky
When it's started to rain.

The sorrow sweeps over
I find myself lost
As I think of what could be
But at what cost.