Choices

Sometimes I wonder how life would be
without  my children to help me see
the goodness of life and risks I take
As their existence guides the choices I make.

Would  I get a flu shot? 
Drive in a car?
Would I drive the speed limit
leaving the bar.

Would I bother with a seat belt? 
Drink and drive, would I dare?
I might even hate myself
and not even care .

I might risk my life ,
I might take a chance
I might flirt with death,
Enjoying the dance.

I might want to die,
abandon this life
To stop the pain,
To end the strife.

But these are things
I'd never do
No matter what,
I'll see things through

For I'm scared what might happen
 if I were to die
And leave my kids in this world
Without a guide.

So the choices I make for my children's lives sake,
inadvertently do, keep me alive and safe, too.